So Alone?

I'm sitting at home in front of the computer.

Again.

Alone.

Again.

I know He is with me.

But I feel so alone.

Why?

Paul told the Phillipian church in 4:12 :

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

I don't know what it is to be in need, but compared to most on this Earth, I do know what it is to have plenty. I haven't learned the secret of being content in any & especially every situation, no matter if I'm full or think that I'm hungry, no matter if I spend a lifetime in plenty or spend a moment in want.

So why do I yearn for more?

I am so blessed.

Why isn't it enough?

Is it the insatiable human apetite?

Maybe I shouldn't be so hard on myself, the Garden & true sinless fellowship with GOD wasn't enough for Adam & Eve.

Never the less, these feelings & emotions, right or wrong are real.

And He knows that.

If I lie to myself, I'm lying to GOD.

So here I sit.

And who am I speaking to, Christ or you, the reader, whoever you are?

No offense, but if I'm talking to you, what good is that?

You can't help me, I can't help you.

At best all we can do is cry together & know we're not alone..... Ha!
There is some serious irony.

At worst, we can have a pity party & whine about how life isn't fair.

What do we know about fair?

We don't want fair.

Fair is what we deserve. Not forgiveness.

We don't want fair.

Shouldn't we be speaking to our Savior?

Comfort & encouragement through fellowship with each other is good, but how often do we look to one another instead of looking to Him?

He is here.

He is calling out to me through the music playing through my computer.
He is calling out to me through His creation.
He is calling out to me through the people in my life.
He is calling out to me through the experiences & lessons of my life.
He is calling out to me through His Word sitting idly next to me on the table.

I still feel alone.

Maybe it's time to stop writing (or reading this) & pick up His Word and spend some 'real' time with my (our) Lord & Savior.

Thanks for listening to my rambling, now it's time for me to listen to Him.