I recently sent out the link to this blog to 'more than a few' of my friends. I wonder if it was a bad idea. I seem to be crying out a lot in the words of these entries. Many deep personal things that weigh on my soul. I think most people are uncomfortable with this kind of 'nakedness'. If I was outside looking in, I don't think I would care for the idea of a guy bearing his soul to the world, but especially to people that knew him. I think it was a bad idea. Too late now. I guess the good thing is most of my friends that may have read it then, probably shook their heads & continued on their own journey all the while wondering what could have possessed me to be so open. Others may have thought it was 'different', but then promptly forgot about it. No matter what my friends or anyone else might think about it or me, I feel compelled to continue on with it, whether it is self-indulgence or something more.
I hope it's something more.
But, by it's very nature it is one-sided. My thoughts, my perspective.....my words. "My"..... how I'm starting to despise that word.
I'm not feeling too spiritual so I guess there won't be any songs or scripture tonight either.
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