"Unaware"

Tell me how I got here
I couldn't make it on my own
Just tell me I can stay
Cause it feels so much like home
And I lose all track of time
When I look into Your eyes
Your love is all I know

Unaware of my fears
Unaware of my shame
Nothing else matters here
But glorifying Your name
Unaware of everything
Knowing You're aware of me

I'm unaware of all my fears
And I'm unaware of all my shame
Nothing else matters here
But glorifying Your name
I'm unaware that I still breathe
Unaware of everything
Knowing You're aware of me

From “Unaware” by MercyMe

There is nothing more beautiful to me in our personal worship of Christ than those ‘unaware’ moments. They are so freeing…. So pure. Likewise, I believe there is nothing more beautiful to see someone being ‘unaware’ in his or her worship of Him during corporate worship. It’s so rare for me to get to that point. Too self-conscious. Aware of Him but still too aware of other things, other people, …..of myself. It’s a duality that inhibits my worship. It happens when I am in a state of worship, whether it be singing, raising my hands, dropping to my knees or something else, but I'm not able to completely shut out the world around me. And knowing that I’m ‘aware’ of this fact, I'm 'aware' He knows. But what do I do with that? Do I hold back from praising Him in this visible form of worship just because I am 'aware' I am within a public setting, or do I go ahead in spite of being 'aware’ of ‘me’? And if I do, where is the purity of worship? Am I truly worshiping Him? But if I don’t, am I disobeying the promptings of the Holy Spirit?

Conundrum.

Maybe the key is not to think in moments like those.

Just be...

Be in the Spirit...

Let go...

Be aware of Him being aware of you.

John 4:23-24 (The Message)
23-24"It's who you are and the way you live that count before God. Your worship must engage your spirit in the pursuit of truth. That's the kind of people the Father is out looking for: those who are simply and honestly themselves before him in their worship. God is sheer being itself—Spirit. Those who worship him must do it out of their very being, their spirits, their true selves, in adoration."