But It's Me

"But It’s Me"

(my interpretation of "Me" by Paula Cole)


I am not the man before you
I am the one screaming from inside
I am not the one making jokes
I just build up my defenses
I am not my house, my car, my sins
They are only stumbling blocks along my way
I am like the winter
A sinful cold-hearted man
But with a soulful hope of Grace around my heart

But it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

YOU are carrying my voice
YOU are carrying my heart
YOU are carrying my rhythm
YOU are carrying my prayers

But they can't kill YOUR Spirit
It's soaring and it's strong
Like a mountain
YOU go on and on
So when my wings are folded
The silent cries of mine
Will fall into the air and be blown away

But for now it’s me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too proud
To ask for the thing I love
And it's me who's too weak
And it's me who's too proud

To ask for the thing I love

That I love

That I love
That I love
That I love
That I love
That I love


I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And I'm scared as hell
But I know there's something better
Yes I know there's something better
Yes I know, yes I know, yes I know

That I love
(But it's me that gets in the way)
That I love
(But it's me that screws things up)
That I love
(But it’s me that is my enemy)
That I love
(But it’s me that holds me back)
That I love

(But it's me)

(And it's me)

(But it's me)
(But it's me)
(But it's me)



I wrote the majority of this a couple of years ago, but it still needs work. It encompasses some internal struggles that I have fought within in the past & have to keep from happening any more. The original song is sung by Paula Cole & she has a very haunting, hearfelt voice & she sings it with such raw emotion. I thought the original words were interesting, but they were obviously from a woman's point of view, so I modified it to fit what I was feeling at the time. (I'm probably one of only 3 straight men who ever heard the song :O)